I never used to be a confident person. I was so painfully shy when I was younger, to the point where I would even be too shy to talk to my own family. I got a little better when I started secondary school - but there was always plenty of room for improvement. It got to the point, around the age of 14, where I had to make a stand. It got a little bit ridiculous and so I lied. I lied to myself and to everyone else. I pretended I was confident - and I managed to convince everyone, including myself, that I was confident. I still have a way to go, but I'm more confident now than I ever have been. It's just a case of 'fake it till you make it'.
School. It's meant to be a place where you find yourself and learn to become a person, as well as learning how to pass exams. Stay with me, I'm going somewhere with this. We all know that the education system is messed up, these days we are not taught the life skills we need such as how to pay taxes or how to buy a house, but it's OK because at least we know how exactly how an atom is structured. However, I'll save this rant for another day.
I had a little bit of faith left in schools when it came to encouraging you to form your own opinions and finding yourself. Surely, if nothing else, schools and the teachers inside of them should help you to express yourself and truly become you.
However. Whilst in an English lesson the other week, we somehow stumbled onto the subject of feminism. A controversial subject to say the least, especially when it comes to a room full of rowdy teenagers - although, if a good teacher was to have come across this subject with their class, I like to believe that they would have handled it by openly discussing it - instead of trying to push their own beliefs down the thoats of their easily influenced group of teens. That, however, was not the case when it came to my teacher. My teacher, who has before taken our class off subject to talk about her own personal life with her ex-husband, seemed to have it in her mind that every single man on this earth was the devil. She also seemed to believe that women are in no way equal as it stands currently and that we should all be fighting for women's rights.
Now don't get me wrong, I personally believe that we should have equality for everyone as far as possible. However, I also believe that we cannot have FULL equality. The reason being that men and women are different. We have different body parts. Our purpose on this earth is different. How can men and women be equal when women can't produce sperm? How can men and women be equal when men can't carry a baby? We are different - which is why I, personally, believe that gender equality is what we have now. Sure, there is the occasional exception in which someone is paid more due to their gender, but on the whole, we're pretty damn close to gender equality. I have to ask, how much further are we willing to take this? Do we really want to take it to the point where men and women are so 'equal' that it's difficult for our brains to distinguish a difference? Because surely that will take us to a place where we are no longer aroused by a persons jiggly bits.
When I, for the first time in my life, decided to voice my opinion in front of a whole class, I was instantly shot down. This teacher, who was obviously shocked that I even had a voice, had taken it upon herself to make sure that I knew my OPINION was 'wrong'. She instantly became defensive and struggled to contradict the point I had just made. This made me feel as though there was something wrong with me for thinking outside the box, like I was weird for thinking differently. But then I thought to myself that surely, as a teacher, they should be encouraging me to think for myself, instead of how society has taught me. I wouldn't have minded had she of challenged my opinion in order to make me think even more for myself. But no. Instead, my idea was immediatly given the red flag and I was made to feel like a complete idiot. Please keep in mind that this is the teacher who downright refused to talk about our upcoming exam, but instead spoke about how she changed her name 20 odd years ago.
This, however, will not put me off thinking outside the box. If my opinion is different from others, then so be it. Opinions are meant to be your own, not society's. Don't let society do the thinking for you, think for yourself.
Let me know if anything like this happened to you at school,
Thanks for reading!